The Jam Files #9: Hijacked
As if the body didn’t have enough foreign invaders to fight off. As if the battle didn’t already feel like one to throw the towel in on.
My husband & I have Covid-19 & contrary to a lot of rhetoric, it is not “just a cold” nor is a “mild” case a walk in the park. Something invisible sits on my chest. My husband wheezes through asthmatic lungs (this is his second go with this nasty virus), & we’re thankful for every moment we’re not feverish.
I get weird during fevers. I dreamt of shadow people & awoke to a room full of them. Then flashing fireworks danced behind my eyelids & I panicked. My body can’t stay in the same position for too long without cramping up & hurting, so not being able to physically turn myself over was frightening. “Not now. Not yet. This isn’t supposed to happen this way.” Whispered prayers & reassurances. Hugs & forehead kisses.
We feel we’re getting better. At least there’s the hope of it before another wave of whatever top symptom decides to fall like rain. Occasional cough is better than a racking one. Stuffy head is better than a congested chest.
I have supersonic smell. It’s pretty wild. After hearing so much about the opposite happening I’m amazed I can smell the Chex mix my husband munches on from the next room. This is both cool & nauseating depending on the scent. How quickly things can become odors.
I am glad that this time there is no need for us to keep separate. I am happy we can monitor each other more closely. I am not happy that we are ill. Iller. God’s giving me energy from some previously untapped source because somehow I am functioning energy-wise better than I have in months. I am grateful. I believe we will recover.
I’m slowly reading Anne Rice’s “Tale of the Body Thief” & I too feel hijacked. I imagine a big “what if” scenario if possibly there is an alternate universe where a healthy me is living her best life. A healthy me that doesn’t have any extra concern about becoming infected with something else. Where the world is less deadly for her. Maybe she’s a vampire. Vampires don’t get sick so there’s the main reason why I’m obsessed with them.
I’m due for my booster shot at the end of the month, but did I ever feel like the masks or the vaccines were life-savers? No. Hope givers I suppose, & I’ll take them.
The mantra is “We will be well.” We mutter it during our naps. We hold each other. Apologize unnecessarily. Watch way too much TV. Avoid the internet as much as possible. Believe.
I hope you all are healthy & happy. Pray for us, please. We’re hanging in here best we can.
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Oh my god I’m so sorry you two have to experience all this. You two will get better very very soon, keep believing in yourself. Sending strength, prayers, hope and love your way! Wishing you get the good health as you imagine in your “what if” scenario. ❤
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Thanks. I’m already chronically ill so this on top of existing symptoms is miserable. I appreciate your prayers very much. ❤️❤️
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Oh that’s really bad but I know you’re a fighter, you’ll get through this too 🙂 Keep taking good rest, my thoughts and prayers are with you both <3🙏
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Thank you
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Oh Jennifer! Take care, my dear. Sending your way my best wishes, prayers, love, hugs and fortitude. ❤️❤️
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Thank you ♥️♥️
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You are welcome. ❤️❤️
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I hope the two of you will feel better soon and recover fully. Best wishes from Scotland, Jennifer. 🌈
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Thank you, Britta 🧡🧡
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🙏 I am praying for you both to get better soon! 🙏 I wrote a vampire comic script a while ago, like 10 years ago, a few issues, so I understand the appeal. Keep your energy up but also get rest. Sending you a hot cup of soup through the wires. 🥣
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Thank you 💜
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I’ll be praying for you guys. My youngest brother contacted me last night to tell me he has COVID-19 as well. I hope you guys will have a smooth and speedy recovery with no lingering symptoms. 💙
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Thank you, Tre. I pray the same for your brother. ❤️
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Thank you, Jennifer. And you’re most welcome.
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I’m comforted that you are getting through this one together. Unthinkable alone. I send all my prayers that you don’t have many more symptoms to suffer through and you both recover soon! 🕯
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Thank you. We’re hanging in here. 💜
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Please take care of yourself Jennifer, and I hope that your husband also takes good care of himself! Very sad to hear this! Though, I also admire your fighting spirit! Sending best wishes to both of you so that you and your husband come out of this fighting!
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Thank you. We’re hanging in here.
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💛 To better days ahead
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Thank you 💙
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Hope you both get well very soon. Rest as much as you can.
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Thank you. We’re probably considered “recovered” now, but there are strange symptoms lurking around still. My brain is doing strange things.
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Glad to read you’re on the mend. Hopefully those lingering issues will go soon too. Take care.
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So sorry you’ve had to struggle with this on top of everything else ❤ Hope you both have a safe recovery and get well soon. Sending chicken soup and hugs down the wires.
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Thanks. We’re doing a lot better thankfully. Just some weird symptoms that won’t stop lingering around.
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I just saw this post tonight. I hope all your symptoms, including the lingering ones are all better now.
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Thank you. ❤️🙏 I’m still dealing with some residual symptoms, but nothing serious. I’ve been thoroughly checked over by doctors and they assure me that my heart, lungs, and kidneys are doing fine. I thank God that I’ve recovered and that my husband is well too. I’m hopeful that the cough and chest wall inflammation will be better eventually.
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I’m so glad you’re better! Who is still having the cough and chest wall inflammation, you or your husband?
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Me. I have some meds that are helping it though. The pain seems to be improving every day.
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I’m so glad you’re improving! Do you use a diffuser with essential oils?
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I do. The only thing I find much of a medical benefit from is if I use peppermint or eucalyptus. It helps my allergies. The rest just smell good. 🙂
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I’ve been using mine a lot lately with peppermint, eucalyptus, and a few drops of frankincense. All 3 are anti-inflammatory.
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I’m a little late but I only saw this post now. But I’m glad you got well. It’s definitely not a common cold as some people (especially conservatives) put it. I took my booster dose yesterday and I’m down with fever, headache and stomach problems. That coupled with arthritis makes me feel like crap. But I know that you struggle with a lot of health issues. So it must have been really hard for you. The alternate reality thought made me think as well. What if there’s a Nitin living his best life out there and not brooding like I do! Vampires used to fascinate me. I watched the Underworld series when I was young and enjoyed it. But now horror isn’t my thing although I really want to read one Anne Rice book one day. Tc.
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Thanks, Nitin. I hope you feel better from shot side effects soon. Those weren’t fun for me either. I’m glad to be reading your writing again.
I love Underworld & I’m slowly making my way through Anne Rice books. I’ve read the first four in The Vampire Chronicles so far.
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