Spun
I wake you up
with my hacking
All my disgust
comes up, soaks
shredded tissue paper
I deteriorate daily
& you tell me I am as beautiful as a fresh rose
My last breaths are yours,
I give you all of my gasps
as silkworms thread homes
in my hair
I worry the disease of vanity will kill me
I no longer recognize
this skin Iām in, but still
name my aches to gain
power over them
The other night,
the thorn I helped you
remove from your finger
felt like I placed it there
I apologize for existing
when your frets become
my unworthiness
forgive my inability to freeze time
I am cocooned
in the shame
of my age, webbed
in all my bad choices
& furious mistakes
will you be here
when the fever
finally breaks?
Photo by Mika Baumeister on Unsplash
Excellent poem Jennifer!
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Thanks!
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My pleasure!
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Yes, I hope I will.
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šš I hope I am too. Jeez whatever this is is terrible.
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Moving and a little raw too. Beautiful.
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Thank you
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“I give you all of my gasps
as silkworms thread homes
in my hair” — Brilliant.
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Thank you š
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Truly my pleasure!
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